Karate and stuff

Well,  We have had many ups and downs this summer.  A few weeks ago, Jasmine just all of a sudden said she wanted to quit karate.  I was a little shocked, considering she has LOVED it for so long. I asked her why, and she responded "I just dont want to do it anymore" which didn't make sense to me.  I am not going to force her to do something she doesn't want to do, but I do want a clear answer as to why.  Then when I tried to talk to her again, she said "well, there are some new instructor helpers, and Im not sure if I am comfortable, but never-mind, I will keep doing it"  so the next week came, and it was time for karate. She was  freaking out about not wanting to go to karate.  I finally got it out of her. I just said, "Jasmine, honey, if you tell mama why you dont want to go, I might be able to help" and then the tears came...she said "every time we have sparring or wrestling during practice, it makes me have really bad memories of that bad person.  especially when we have to have someone hold us down, and fight out of it.  I always have bad dreams those nights.  I cant take it anymore."  I told her I would take care of it.  I called the studio to tell the owner and "master" that she was wanting to quit and why (he knows the history) and then the most wonderful, thing happened. He responded with, "if that is what she wants, that is okay, we will have to deal with the contract.  But she is really good, and I know that she has loved it.  I would hate to see such a natural martial artist walk away just because of sparring/wrestling.  We can customize a program just for her, and she will not have to spar/wrestle at all unless she chooses to. This wont affect her moving up into masters training or anything, in fact, why dont you bring her to the next masters training seminar so she can check it out."   I was deeply touched by his caring and understanding.  He really didnt have to be so accommodating.

I know I shouldnt say things like this, but when Jasmine opens up about the abuse, and memories she has or nightmares she has of the offender, I get so pissed off, and I wish I could give the offender nightmares. Sometimes the rage I feel towards the offender and family really scares me.  I would never act on it, because I know that wouldnt solve anything, and that isnt what my daughter needs, but man...I cant put it into words, but it is intense.