We have had ups and downs since my last post. And I have gotten some good recommendations on counselors which I am going to set up some appt. for when we get back from the beach. Jasmine has been really wanting to talk with me alot about everything, memories she has had, her dreams of the offender, and her thoughts and feelings about it all. I am so glad that she feels comfortable enough to talk to me. It is hard to hear though. It tears me up inside. I continue to be completely blown away by her everyday. On monday, we were sitting on the couch she out of the blue asked me "Why do you think that horrible person thought is was okay to do that to me, and hurt me for so long? Why would they do that? I know I shouldn't say this, but I really hate them." I didn't know how to really answer that. I have asked the same question, not so nicely, myself. honestly I DONT F*#KING UNDERSTAND WHY!!!! I dont understand why this had to happen to my daughter. I dont understand why this horrible human felt they had the right to take away her innocence, and drastically affect her life forever. I cant wrap my mind around why children are sexually abused. There is just NO REASONABLE EXPLANATION! I simply said "Sweet girl, I have no idea why, and we wont ever know. And its okay to say that, I feel the same way. I know we shouldn't HATE, and we may not hate them forever, maybe someday we will get to the place where we just dislike them strongly. But for right now, its okay to feel that way." She then hugged me, and said I dont want to talk about it anymore, lets paint our nails. So we did...
On a different note, I am almost done with the petition! It is taking a while, because I am doing ALOT of research, and trying to make sure it is worded properly so I AM TAKEN SERIOUSLY. I had a friend say to me "Man, they better watch the F*#k out! I dont think they are going to know what has hit them when you go knocking on Washington's door" I WILL make this happen. I will not give up, and I probably wont just stop at funding for assault/abuse victims, but the justice system needs alot of work in this area too. There needs to be stricter laws against sex offenders! DO NOT LET THESE PEOPLE OUT OF JAIL!!! THEY ALWAYS OFFEND AGAIN!!! THEY CANNOT BE REHABILITATED!!! But, one thing at a time. I need to calm down, and focus on my first step.
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I think there's a place outside of Washington on one of those islands or maybe within Washington that is full of sex offenders who aren't allowed into society. There should be more places like that. They get therapy and things like that, but are definitely not allowed back into society at all.
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