Rollercoaster Ride

Its been a while since my last post.  Things have been a little rough.  I feel like we have been on a roller-coaster with Jasmine.  She ended up wrestling/sparring at karate a few weeks back, and it has really thrown everything off.  She chose to do it, and seemed okay with it at first, but not a good idea.  She ended up having a meltdown at school which ended up turning into a huge deal.  I had to fill in the blanks with the teacher.  Yikes...

Then the next week, she was sent to the principles office.  Her class was all lined up to go to lunch.  This little boy was behind her and kept poking/pushing/punching Jasmine in the back.  After asking him repeatedly to stop, she got very upset, turned around and pushed him...hard enough that he flew back and was knocked completely down.  And with the zero tolerance policy with the school, even though she didnt start it, and was defending herself, she got into trouble.  Not as bad as the boy that started it, but still had to write him a letter of apology, miss her lunchtime recess, and go to the principles office. Which I dont know how exactly I feel about that.  On one hand, I understand the rules. But on the other hand, having the children run to the teacher with every little thing, and not defending themselves, I feel doesnt do them any good.  It makes them victims.  So I am just glad she didnt pull out any of her karate moves, and really hurt the boy.

Jasmine has been up and down with her emotions, behavior and everything else alot.  We have talked about counseling and she says she doesnt know if she wants to find a new one right now. Its just to hard for her.  I am struggling with how to help her. And what to do. This is just so frustrating.  I havent been working on the petition at all.  I dont know.  I am just very discouraged by the overall response Ive gotten from people that I talk to about it.  Dont get me wrong, there are some people that are very supportive, and want to help, but then there are people who just dont get it, and dont think anything needs to be changed, and that even talking about it is a waste of time.  It outrages me to no end!  I am starting to feel like maybe I need to go in a different direction, or something.  I am sure that I will feel differently about it later on, but right now, I feel overwhelmed and defeated.